A Letter to The Editor

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There are days when you hurt, when you feel like your going to break. You want to hold your head high and act like there is nothing wrong. You want to fight these feeling, but more then anything you want to fight what is bringing these feelings. The worst part is you don't know where they are coming from. You don't understand why most days you are fine, but some days you cannot shake this feeling. This feeling of hurt, sadness, doom, and loneliness. On these days, Hold on don't give in to the thought that it won't get better or that you are alone.

You are a beautiful person. You have achieved things with strengths that you have pulled from places people had no idea existed. You can achieve your dreams, you can do whatever you want to do. Yes the struggles will find you, and you will have to fight your way through them. When you look back you will see how much you have grown, how many people you have touched, and how you literally saved your own life.

I know you are scared of a lot of things. I know because of the past, you have a lot of anxiety towards the future. You need to take a deep breath and let that go. What has happened is in the past, the future is going to happen, but the present is here and you need to live it. Stop holding on and fearing for the future, live for today. Let things happen, let yourself grow, let today guide you into tomorrow, let your heart be open to opportunity.

You grew up faster then most. You gave up a lot of your childhood for other people. Let that go, it is nobodies fault. You now have the time in your life that is yours, and nobody else stop giving it to the past. Be great full for the challenges you were given, for the family and friends who were there every step of the way. Look around you and feel the love from everyone, give the love to everyone.

Remember that this is life, There is feeling, remember that these feelings mean you are alive. That you are still breathing. Remember that you are still blessed to be here, that even though some of the most valuable people in your life have passed, you still have time to change the world. It is in your hands, this is your world, everyones world do your part NOW, today to change it.

Love-

Self. 

 

You Can

  "Words can never adequately convey the incredible impact of our attitudes toward life. The longer I live the more convinced I become that life is 10 percent what happens to us and 90 percent how we respond to it."

 

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With these two things together, I believe you can make it through almost anything. 

Lots of love this week. 

new day

"you have a special place in this world, all you have to do is find it.

do not give up on yourself, on the truths you have realized.

do not give into those who would crush your dreams like nutshells.

and never turn away from forever love."

.ellen.hopkins.

i like the idea of a fresh start. i love this quote. today  i set out to start classes, and to meet new people and to get the wheels rolling quickly towards getting to where i need to be. not so much doing things for other people, this helps me remember its okay to look out for yourself, its needed most days. and that most of the time things are not as bad as they seem.  i have come to realize that when something doesn't work out, eventually we will see why it didn't work out and we can see the better side of things.  i have learned this. at times its hard to accept but life seems to go easier when i do.

Dumb

"You know the moments in life when your dumb. Flat out, no excuse, no reason, you were just dumb."

I was dumb yesterday. When I do something stupid,  and I realize it well it makes me physically ill. I stew over it for hours/days. I hate it because it wears on me, and even though it probably doesn't. It makes me feel like it effects the relationships. When in reality its the stress that I put on myself over the situation that effects the relationship. I hate being dumb.  Does anybody else do this?

When In Doubt

"so never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar,
never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome.
just keep your mind open and suck in the experience.
and if it hurts, you know what?
it's probably worth it."

Post Secret

I love the idea of sharing your biggest secret, long lasting regret, or biggest stress in life and writing it down, or making it into art, and mailing it away. Frank Warren opened up his mailbox to the world and let them do this. It's a safe way to let things go and be free of them. To Take a break and start over as the new you you have been hoping to be.

Warren Has Said -
"I think when you look at each postcard, it can almost act like a 6-inch-by-4-inch window into someone's soul. And they're allowing you to peek in and share something from their own lives that they haven't felt comfortable sharing with their closest friends and family,"

I love reading these, I love that one guy has put this project together, and has done it with such class. He has his blog and doesn't put any advertisements on it for the mere fact that he doesn't do it for money, He does it because he loves it. I think it is awesome, I also think it helps millions of people, in a ton of different ways.

There is a blog And This is What She Said That does Tell me a secret Tuesday. It's a similar idea but blog style, Where you can go on once a week and spill your guts.


Love them both-

Lindy

Getting it.

There comes a time when you have to choose whether your gonna be happy or not. That's it. No matter what comes our way, death, stress, work, disease, WHATEVER it is. It's our choice. We are taught that our whole life's, I may or may not just be getting it.

Just Stop, Take a Break, and Then Get Up and Get Going.

  I have been told by some we are given our trials so that we can grow and learn from them. But at what point do we decide we can't grow anymore. That our hearts are to tired and heavy, that are minds are tired also. When we crawl into bed at night and look up and beg that nothing, good nor bad will be added to our lives because frankly we cannot take either at this time. All we ask is that we make it through the night. And that the four hours of sleep we have the chance to get will be sufficient enough to get us through tomorrow. 
At some point you have to grab a hold of reality and realize, this crap is not going away. You have to deal with it, you have to push through until it is over. You cannot just merely survive day in and day out, because that does not make it go away. Fighting, growing, learning, doing something makes these things work out.

The Weepies Have a song-

"Can't Go Back Now"

Can't Go Back Now (Weird Video, Best Song)

Yesterday when you were young
Everything you needed done was done for you
Now you do it on your own
But you find you're all alone, what can you do?

You and me walk on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now

You know there will be days
When you're so tired
That you can't take another step
The night will have no stars
And you'll think you've gone as far
As you will ever get

You and me wak on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now

And yeah, yeah, you go where you want to go
Yeah, yeah, be what you want to be
If you ever turn around, you'll see me

I can't really say
Why everybody wishes they were somewhere else
But in the end, the only steps that matter
Are the ones you take all by yourself

You and me walk on, walk on, walk on
Yeah, you and me walk on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now
Walk on, walk on, walk on
You can't go back now 

I love this song, It have been played at lease 100 times in the past week. It seriously helps me keep my head above water everyday. Reminds me that I need to keep fighting. 

There has been a lot in the past few months, that have put me to a point where I literally thought I was going crazy. I broke down a few days ago. I am not talking about some teenage breakdown over a boyfriend, no I literally broke down to a point I was ready to check myself in somewhere because I was convinced I was crazy. I sat in the bathroom at my job and could not stop crying, at that point I realized I had to stop a lot of things. The main was letting life pass me by, yes it was easier to just watch things happen and deal with the minimum and not really deal with the issues at hand. But it was building up and tearing me apart from the inside out. I cannot believe how long it took me to realize how effected I was by all these things. My body was being physically affected, my personality had been affected, I was just not myself.  I guess when your trying to ignore the stresses in your life, you literally put everything on the back burner. I was disconnected from family, friends, work, my religion, but most importantly myself. I sat there in the bathroom looking in the mirror and I had no idea who I was looking at. It's scary to look at yourself and not know who you are, or why your going crazy. But its also a big motivation to get yourself back.  I believe my time in the bathroom is when I truly Stopped took a break, and after a while I decided it was time to get up and get going. Ever since then I feel like I am slowly getting myself back. It has been a rough time, but it has been 100% worth it. 

Lindy

Breathless . . .

The Moment when you know exactly what you need to do
The fear that engulfs your body when you take the first step into the unknown.
The end of one journey, and the beginning of another.
The realization that life as we know it is over, and we must move on. 
The lost sense of control.
The trust you put into someone you barely know.
The empty pit you feel in the bottom of your stomach.
The Idea that in the end it will all be okay.

Today, all these things Ran through my mind and I literally had to catch my breath as I realized that a year ago when I thought life was changing more then I could handle, That was only preparing me for what was coming at this time. And I will be honest, I don't think I am ready.  The events of the past year seem childish as to what I am facing head on right now, but I can't turn back. And I hope that soon, These too will seem childish.

Oh My Lazy Sunday

“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.”

Smile

"Someday Someone Will Walk Into Your Life And Make You Realize Why It Never Worked Out With Anyone Else..."

 

Sometimes we just have to let things go. Cause once we let go we open up a whole lot of possibilities. 

Lindy

Epiphany

I don't want a blog where I come and trash on my friends. I want to write positive things. I want a place where people can come and read, laugh, enjoy, or be uplifted. Not a place where people feel they have to give me pitty, or feel I need someone. I appreciate all the people who have read and helped me in the past, but today and from here on out, I am gonna have a happy Blog. One with things that will make any day a better day!!

Enjoy !!

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years."
Abraham Lincoln